Jesse James on losing baby Louis: It 'has left a huge hole in my heart'

jesse-james-statement.jpgThe world learned Wednesday (April 28) that Sandra Bullock has adopted an infant born in New Orleans -- and that she has filed for divorce from husband Jesse James.

While Bullock and James started the adoption process together four years ago, now it seems James will not play a part in helping raise the 3-month-old baby boy, Louis.

In People's upcoming 10-page spread (on newsstands Friday, April 30), James made the following statement about losing his wife and baby boy:

"My whole life has been full of hard decisions. The decision to let my wife end our marriage and continue the adoption of Louis on her own has been the hardest. The love I have for Louis cannot be put to words. Not having him around to love and to hold has left a huge hole in my heart.

"Sandy is the love of my life, but considering the pain and devastation I have caused her, it would be selfish to not let her go. Right now it is time for me to beat this addiction that has taken two of the things I love the most in life.