Nicole Scherzinger: 'My bulimia was my addiction,' she says in new VH1 special
VH1's "Behind the Music" is profiling former Pussycat Doll and "X Factor" judge Nicole Scherzinger on Sunday and in these preview clips (via EW), Scherzinger talks about her battle with bulimia.
"I just hated myself. I hated myself. I really was so disgusted with myself and so embarrassed. I felt so alone. I was in a group, and I never felt so alone in my life," says Scherzinger in the VH1 special.
"It's embarrassing. I never spoke about it. Like I said, I never want to play a victim, and I never wanted my family to hear about things from me because I think it would break their hearts, you know?," Scherzinger continues. "I guess it was like my addiction, right? I never did drugs, but kinda doing things to myself was my addiction. It's like when I got off stage, I was on this high, and I'd come back to my room and I'd be alone, so I would just do things. My bulimia was my addiction; hurting myself was my addiction."
The full episode featuring Scherzinger airs Sunday, Oct. 7 at 9 p.m. ET/PT on VH1.