Paula Deen apology: 'Please forgive me' for using N-word [Updated]

paula-deen-apology.jpgAfter canceling a "Today" show interview at the last minute Friday (June 21), Food Network host Paula Deen promised a video statement about reports that she had used a racial slur in the past.

Her statement came, eventually. The "video" part is proving to be a little more problematic.

"I want to apologize to everybody for the wrong that I've done. I want to learn and grow from this," Deen says in the statement. You can watch an archived copy of the video here, but good luck finding it on YouTube. The video appeared briefly on the site, then was taken down.

Deen says that "Inappropriate, hurtful language is totally, totally unacceptable," but she never directly refers to the incident that has landed her in hot water -- her deposition in a lawsuit in which she admits to having used the N-word in the past. There's also some curious editing in the 45-second clip, suggesting multiple passes at the material.

Deen's full statement is as follows:

"I want to apologize to everybody for the wrong that I've done. I want to learn and grow from this. Inappropriate, hurtful language is totally, totally unacceptable. I've made plenty of mistakes along the way, but I beg you, my children, my team, my fans, my partners -- I beg for your forgiveness. Please forgive me for the mistakes that I've made."

UPDATE: Deen has posted a second, lengthier video in which she gives a more off-the-cuff apology -- and one that sounds more heartfelt. "The color of your skin, your religion, your sexual preference does not matter to me. But it's ... what's in the heart, and my family and I try to live by that," she says in the video, which you can see below. "I am here to say I was wrong."

Photo/Video credit: YouTube via Eater