Rihanna talks Chris Brown: 'I was still in love'
In this month's Elle Magazine, though, she says she's grown to have a better attitude about the whole thing. "I respect what other people have to say. The bottom line is that everyone thinks differently," she says. "It's very hard for me to accept, but I get it. People end up wasting their time on the blogs or whatever, ranting away, and that's all right. I don't hate them for it."
She even says that Brown's violent attack on her in February 2009 fueled her to be a more successful artist. "It gave me guns. I was like, well, f***. They know more about me than I want them to know. It's embarrassing. But that was my opening. That was my liberation, my moment of bring it. I wanted people to know who I am. Whatever they take that to be, good or bad, I just want them to know the truth."
Her subsequent album, Rated R, channeled her feelings about the attack into music. "I was going through the hardest time of my life. I was angry, sad, confused, torn. I was still in love. And I needed to talk about it. That was the only way I could get peace, because it was in my head, and I couldn't leave it there."