'Survivor: Cagayan's' Lindsey Ogle: Trish was 'cruisin for a bruisin'
Zap2it: Walk us through what was going through your head when you decided to leave the show.
Lindsey Ogle: Oh, gosh, if I only knew. [ laughs] I've watched a lot of "Survivor" and you sit there, with your bowl of chips and your pop and you're like, "I would never, ever do that. She's a wimp," but it's a little different when you get out there.
In my honest opinion, I felt like even seeing it again, I got the same feeling still -- do I have any regerets? Absolutely not. I made the best choice and I really do feel like it's a selfless decision that you have to make sometimes and not everybody is going to agree with you, not everybody's going to believe you, but you have to know in your heart that that is exactly what you needed to do at that time. ...
You see [Trish and me] doing like jabs back and forth with each other -- those weren't the only conversations we had -- but we really didn't get along. You could tell the energy between the two of us, just exchanging energies itself was not going to be good.
Have you ever met someone before where you just think, "I don't really like them. I can't put my finger on it, but I just don't like them." ... I think that happened between Trisha and I both. And you're seeing an edited version. You have people on these social media sites saying, "Oh my gosh, what a quitter, way to walk away from your problems." But I'm telling you right now and people who know me before my child, my right hook is really something you don't want to mess with.
I'm on Brawn tribe and I own a beauty salon -- gee, I wonder why. My daughter has really matured me over the past eight years, but you don't own a hair salon and get put on the Brawn tribe for nothing.
I felt like I got to the point -- have you ever been so angry that your hands are sweating and your adrenaline and your heart is about to beat out of your chest and you're going to do something. You're doing to do something crazy. And people are like, 'You need anger management."
It really is a primitive thing. Our species survived by the will, I just turned into this primitive-type creature. You can bash a chicken over the head with a stick and be like, OK, let's eat it. You're starting fires, you're not taking hot showers, you're not in a bed. You have this primitive response and that came through me.
I'm not -- I don't want to say a "masculine" woman, but I'm rough and tough. I can play basketball with the boys, go fishing and hiking and camping and do all these things, but I'm definitely a go-getter, I'm a mover and a shaker, and I felt like she just reached that point where she was cruisin' for bruisin', you know what I mean?
And it had been a very long time since I had that feeling in side of me and I got a little scared and I thought, "I don't want to hurt this woman." Even if we don't get along, even if she's not my cup of tea, it's not something I want to portray. ... This is how I know I'm a good mother. I'm making a decision for somebody else when they are 50,000 miles, a million miles away from me, on the other side of the world, and I'm making a choice for that person because I don't want their lives to suffer for my decision, losing my cool and breaking this lady's leg.
The big issue that viewers seemed to have was that there was no real basis for why you quit. It's not like she was some hero and you were some villain, but we didn't really see what she was doing to you to make you so angry.
This season is packed full of awesome drama, there's so much to cover that you can't cover absolutely everything. I can say for a fact from the time I woke up to the time I went to sleep -- her yapper. She was the most badgering person. I felt like she needed a cup of coffee and a cigarette hanging gout of her mouth. She would sit there and critique everything you would do. You could have gotten 10 piles of wood and she would be like, 'Where's the rest?" with her cigarette slipping out of her lips while she talks.
People are like, "You need to grow thicker skin," but I'm gonna tell you what -- my skin cannot get any thicker. I have blubber skin, like a whale. It cannot get any thicker. I feel like could swim deep down in the Arctic Ocean with my skin.
She wanted a result and she was gonna get it, and I feel like she had the security blanket of the camera to hide her. ... Any time she wants to put some 12-ounce gloves on and we'll get a referee, I'd be more than happy to. I think that'd actually be pretty good for her because she'd see, for fun, what really does happen. I think she felt pretty protected with her little group and the cameras, and I think she was the little guy trying to put on the big-boy pants. I just feel like, if it was set up in a fair way, I'd love to do that. I don't think we're in the same weight class, but if she's up for it, I'd be down. It's all in good fun.
"Survivor: Cagayan" airs Wednesday nights at 8 p.m. ET/PT on CBS.