'The Challenge: Free Agents': Camila reveals she was competing 'emotionally broken down' after her father passed away
Zap2it: I have to start off by saying I was really sad to see you -- one of "The Challenge" staple vets -- go so soon this season.
Camila: Thank you! I was sad to go too, but it had to happen. I had a feeling.
So tell me ... what happened during that elimination? I never would have predicted that you would give up during an elimination challenge. That just doesn't seem like you.
Yeah, I know. First of all, I should tell you that I said no to "The Challenge" before it started because my father had just passed away. But since it was the 25th "Challenge" MTV really wanted me to do it. Finally they convinced me but my mind and my heart was just at home the whole time. I hadn't seen my dad's grave yet and I was still doing "The Challenge." It felt a little selfish to me, so when the elimination came, it was like I challenged fate. I knew the card that I should have picked in the draw and I changed my mind, so it happened the way it was supposed to happen.
Oh wow, I am so sorry for your loss. I had no idea that was going on this season, no wonder you were playing differently.
Yeah, thank you. I could have just held onto that rope and I pretty much wasn't going anywhere. I could have held on for hours. But my emotions just got the best of me and I was like, "Get me out of here. Why am I even here? I haven't seen my dad's grave yet. This isn't my game, I don't belong here right now." That all got to me and I chose to let go. At the moment it seemed like the right thing to do. Watching it now and talking about it now is hard to do, because I really did just let go.
I'm surprised that MTV didn't show any of that struggle. Nothing aired that really explained your reasoning behind letting go. It adds this whole new layer of understanding to that. Do you know why that was edited out?
Yeah, I'm not sure what their purpose was in not showing that. My whole exit interview was about that and I talked about it a lot. I don't know why they didn't show any of it because that's a pretty big piece of the puzzle. I'm always one of those competitors in "The Challenge" that gives it their all and never gives up until I pass out or gag or something. This time I chose to let go of the rope and that really goes against what I stand for, and my father passing away played a huge role in how I played this entire season. I can't read MTV's mind about how they put the show together but I know my reasons and I know where my heart was at and that's all that matters to me.
Despite your personal struggles and up until that final elimination, you were still playing very impressively. How did you push through and compete despite what was going on at home?
Thank you. I tried, you know? I love "The Challenge." I love jumping off buildings and doing all the challenges. I did as best as I could while being emotionally broken down. I had to put a lot of effort into not breaking down everyday. I tried to sleep as much as I could and I tried to keep my real life separate from what was going on in the house, but that only lasted for so long.
This season's format, "Free Agents," changed up the game quite a bit. If you were at a different point in your life, do you think you would have done better, or did you not like the format this season?
Oh man, I loved the format of this season. You can't rely on alliances, it all comes down to your individual skill and strength and whether or not you can win the challenges. I love that and I love the twist that they threw in there. If it was a different point in my life, I think I would have killed it. This was the way to show that if you're good, you're good, and it doesn't matter what alliances you have.
So this isn't the last time we'll see you on "The Challenge," right?
[Laughs] I thought I was done! Especially with this one, I don't know. I was like, "There's no way I can do another challenge." But it's hard for me to say that I'm not coming back after ending things the way I did. I need to go back and prove to the world that that moment doesn't define me as a competitor. I think you're going to see me again.
"The Challenge: Free Agents" airs Thursdays at 10 p.m. ET/PT on MTV.