'The Challenge: Free Agents': LaToya calls her elimination 'a blessing in disguse'
"My first thought was that I could potentially be going in, because I'm a rookie in the house and my name has been floating in everyone's mouth pretty much since day one," LaToya tells Zap2it. "And I've learned that a lot of people don't keep their word while living in this house, so even though I heard whispers of people wanting to send in Aneesa, I knew it was pretty much a no-brainer that I was going in."
LaToya was frustrated that her rookie status kept dragging her down into eliminations. "Having myself go in a second time, I was like, 'Wow. I have already gone in once, I've already proved myself to you guys, what more do you want from me?'" LaToya says. "That's the part that pissed me off the most, the fact that everyone was using me as a go-to name because they were too scared to vote in the people that they actually wanted to vote for."
Before she left the house, she made sure to confront Jordan and let out some of the things she had been holding in from the beginning. That led to a shouting match between the two contestants, but LaToya doesn't regret that.
"I withheld a lot of my feistiness in the short time that I was there," LaToya says. "There were a lot of things that I wanted to say and a lot of things that I wanted to do but I had to keep my calm since I was the new girl on the block. I didn't want a target on my back too soon but it was a lose/lose situation. I had a target on my back before I even walked in the house, fluffed my pillows, pulled back my sheets and had a good night's sleep. So finally I just decided to speak my mind and let him know how I was feeling because I didn't want to leave the house going, 'Shoulda, woulda, coulda.' I would do it all again if I had the chance."
LaToya still doesn't think that she should have gone into the elimination round for the second time. "I can name a slew of people that were on my team that did not perform nearly as well as I did that should have been voted in," LaToya says. "It was the coward way out to vote me in."
But now that she's had time to reflect, LaToya has a surprisingly calm view on getting sent home. "I was sick and tired of fighting a losing battle," LaToya says. "Even if I won the elimination and I came back into the house, the following day I'd probably be right back in the elimination. I would be voted in over and over and over again. It's exhausting. So honestly, win or lose, I was done with that whole mess. I was too real for that fake environment, so me going home was a blessing in disguise."
What does that mean for her for future seasons of "The Challenge?"
"I think I'm going to retire after this. I might be one-and-done," LaToya says. "But then it's like, I've got so much positive support and feedback from viewers, so why not give them more? I don't know. I could be the one to walk away with the money next time. So I still have to sleep on that one."
"The Challenge: Free Agents" airs Thursdays at 10 p.m. ET/PT on MTV.